Venus

Atlast..I have reached my destination. I am free from all the fantazies
and illusions I have been living with. I have encountered my match.
I lost the game..but it feels like winning much more..
Thank you... to you for the buns and the huns and the fun that comes with it (if you
know what I mean..)
Thank you... to you for the good mornings and good evenings and for EVERYTHING I am to you
(you will surely be blessed)
And finally thanks... to you for accidentally letting me lose..im sorry..you don't
deserve this but it has to happen..(sadly it had to be you...wish u all the best...)

twenty-two

It was great..for the first time, after a long long time..dinner with my whole family.. there couldn't be anything better than that.

I would have been happier though if some did not forget my birthday..Can't blame them anyway..maybe it's not worth remembering. I am not worth..sadly..


Hopefully this year will bring blast to me and my loved ones..FOR THOSE WHO GREETED ME, THANK U SO MUCH..IT MEANS A LOT..I LOVE U ALL..:)

frerre..

Have I been hypnotized by your hazel eyes?

Your character is odd it makes me really mad
Your talks are so dreary i could sleep in a hurry
Your smiles are so fake I wanna throw you a cake
You're full of sarcasm I'm having a spasm

I know its unfair but still I dare to care

ahh.. lost my words.. rude guy.. its for u..

QuEstionS

I'm confuse..Are you? I don't believe in any of this..Do you?
I questioned myself but I got no answer.. Will I get it from you?
If yes, should I ask you? or will it be more confusing if I did?

Words can be deceiving..or is it obfuscated to derail the main idea?
Ahh.. these questions came from nowhere and maybe the answers are nowhere too..
Nowhere to be found..nowhere to ask from..
The confusion is just getting high and obsession is rising too..
You are confused too... right?


date: August 2009 (no exact date)

I loved you first

I don't know what exactly i was feeling at this moment. I found this on my notebook dated 03/17/09....funny..

I'm lost. my roads are not clear to me. I don't know why I should feel this way
when from the start, I already know that this is not fair.It is supposed to be something I could do for fun. Yes! it turns out funny..but I am the one being laughed at..by LOVE.. I don not know if I should blame myself or blame the feelings that brought me to here. My mind, I should have used it but my emotions overpowered my thinking.

So I pretend I do not know anything.. or I'm just presuming that there is something I need to worry about...my mind is full of questions..no..interrogations..aarrggghhhh..I wanna escape..

Central Station...

Ahh.. dry day..Maybe I still have a hang over because of last night's....what was that?haha..nobody knows..

I woke up late..it means i don't have to go in the train station's crowd because of rush hour..:)I arrived 30 mins. late..not bad..So while I was inside the train going to the review center (central terminal), two girls were standing infront of me..(lucky that i had a sit) i guess they are younger than me. Actually, i don't care what they were talking about except when I heard about their "soulmate". It's funny how they share stories about the person they frequently see inside the train..and yea.. they consider the person as their....SOULMATE..I thought to be apathetic..what the hell.. but actually, I raid each corner and looked for a familiar face..haha..maybe he could be my soulmate too..unfortunately, none of them i remember. So I just kept on thinking wether it could be true.Is it possible that your soulmate is just around the corner?? Hmm.. I thought, maybe he's the guy sitting next to me..we're both wearing the same color of shirt afterall..Nope.. He has wedding ring on his finger. The guy 5 feet away from me? well he's cute..haha* have you ever thought of the same thing? Soulmate issue? If I were to think about it, there are billions of people in the world..Is my soulmate one of the millions I talked to, walk across with? the thousands of people I met today? hundreds of guys I bumped into? or maybe..just maybe..the one reading this now??

Way back into blog..i mean love..:)

geeessshhhh it's been almost two years..
I wonder what stopped me..hmm.. time,thoughts, or
maybe nothing/no one to inspire me..:)haha
Well it doesn't mean there is someone now (just
to make it clear----:D)So far, I have lots of thoughts
to air out but I just don't know how to start..
about LIFE, LOVE, CAREER..anything under the sun..
Maybe as the day goes by I will be able to jot it down..:)
It's been so long.. Now I am a soon to be career woman..
Soon after the board Exam.. which i hope I will pass..
(cross-fingers)..I can say that I'm happy with how my life goes
maybe the only missing part is him.. or maybe not..:) haha
No time for that..:)I sometimes think that long distance relationship
is even better.. It is not necessary to frequently talk..
No need for extra time..(which i really cannot give)and no
commitment..:) thats the GOOD part..(for me)hmmm i'm sure some will raise
their brows with this statement..who cares..haha..