Venus

Atlast..I have reached my destination. I am free from all the fantazies
and illusions I have been living with. I have encountered my match.
I lost the game..but it feels like winning much more..
Thank you... to you for the buns and the huns and the fun that comes with it (if you
know what I mean..)
Thank you... to you for the good mornings and good evenings and for EVERYTHING I am to you
(you will surely be blessed)
And finally thanks... to you for accidentally letting me lose..im sorry..you don't
deserve this but it has to happen..(sadly it had to be you...wish u all the best...)

twenty-two

It was great..for the first time, after a long long time..dinner with my whole family.. there couldn't be anything better than that.

I would have been happier though if some did not forget my birthday..Can't blame them anyway..maybe it's not worth remembering. I am not worth..sadly..


Hopefully this year will bring blast to me and my loved ones..FOR THOSE WHO GREETED ME, THANK U SO MUCH..IT MEANS A LOT..I LOVE U ALL..:)

frerre..

Have I been hypnotized by your hazel eyes?

Your character is odd it makes me really mad
Your talks are so dreary i could sleep in a hurry
Your smiles are so fake I wanna throw you a cake
You're full of sarcasm I'm having a spasm

I know its unfair but still I dare to care

ahh.. lost my words.. rude guy.. its for u..

QuEstionS

I'm confuse..Are you? I don't believe in any of this..Do you?
I questioned myself but I got no answer.. Will I get it from you?
If yes, should I ask you? or will it be more confusing if I did?

Words can be deceiving..or is it obfuscated to derail the main idea?
Ahh.. these questions came from nowhere and maybe the answers are nowhere too..
Nowhere to be found..nowhere to ask from..
The confusion is just getting high and obsession is rising too..
You are confused too... right?


date: August 2009 (no exact date)

I loved you first

I don't know what exactly i was feeling at this moment. I found this on my notebook dated 03/17/09....funny..

I'm lost. my roads are not clear to me. I don't know why I should feel this way
when from the start, I already know that this is not fair.It is supposed to be something I could do for fun. Yes! it turns out funny..but I am the one being laughed at..by LOVE.. I don not know if I should blame myself or blame the feelings that brought me to here. My mind, I should have used it but my emotions overpowered my thinking.